30 Days of me: Day 13
A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
I don't like how you make me feel like I'm not good enough. Don't you see that I'm doing my very best at doing things right? and if I'm not doing a good enough job then why don't you just be honest and let me know so, enlighten me! There's nothing else that hurts more then things being said behind your back. I know it's hard to be honest, but we're adults now...we have to try. I am trying and being better at so everyday. That way we can grow and be better at what we do and better towards others. Be wiser, stronger, to be able to grow as a person is a blessing, I don't want to stay on the same level all my life...I want to learn, gain life experience, be effective, successful, and a 100% confident.
Someone,Why are you pointing out the obvious? I know I'm overweight. I'm not blind or stupid. This is who I am. Do I like my size? Good question, sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. It's an everyday challenge, to be positive and love yourself. I do most of the time, don't get me wrong, I think I'm beautiful. Why can't you just let it be and accept me for what I look like and let me deal with my own issues? I know you care about me and may love me, but what you're trying to do is not helping. I'm not a retard, I know what needs to be done, eat healthy and exercise. This might sound like excuses, but with how busy and stressed I feel every week it doesn't leave me much options, I'm tired. I hate gyms and I love food. 1 year ago I weigh just as much as I do today, I was just lighter in between, leave me alone. Talking about weight, food and exercise makes me feel really really BEYOND depressed, and it is at days like that, that I don't love myself cause you're pointing out....the obvious and believing that I'm stupid not knowing, which is just wrong. Can everyone just let it be.
Someone,...out there does make me feel good, don't leave me. I love you!